Life sure is full of misery, conflicts, and complicated. Sometimes you just feel like you wanna dissappear from everyone's sight. Without being noticed. Without anyone care. Without feel distracted. You know, you just feel that. But at some point, you will feel otherwise. You want everyone's attention. You want someone care for you. You want someone love you. You feel like you just need somebody that you can rely on to. Being alone isnt that bad. Being surrounded by people isnt that bad neither. I know theres must be a reason for everything that happened or will happen. I'm just tired of everything. I'm tired of being the one who to blame. Over, over and over again. At the end, all you need is just yourself. I just hate the fact of myself that always put someone as priority while me being put as an option. Ada takpe, takda pun takpe. You are just a prop to a drama. An extra in a story. You just not attractive enough for everyone to notice you. I just feel that everything I did wasnt good enough. Im trying so hard to control my emotions, but then it still easily to burst out. I'm out of control. I'm such a weak person, i cant handle my own emotions. I'm full of insecurity. I feel useless everytime people sad because of me. I feel bad everytime i'm the one spoiling people's mood. But I'm just an ordinary human being. I just feel like I'm such an asshole. Sorry for everything I did. Thanks for trying to cope with all my weird behaviors for all this time. I dont want to lose anyone in my life. Jaljayo

Susu berapa banyak? Cheese berapa keping? Yang ni agak agak je ikut berapa banyak macaroni tu. Macam aku letak satu peket, sekotak susu dutch lady, 1/4 susu pekat and 7 keping cheese. Sukahati la nak letak berapa banyak ikut sedap tekak engkorangggg.


Kalau dah try buat tak jadi juga, aku sarankan tak payah buat lah next time. Membazir je nanti! Hahahahaahhaa ok Comel pun tak habis mengeow dari tadi, dia ingat aku masak makanan dia agaknyaaaa -_- ok gerak dulu, nak suap dia mac cheese biar dia nak sangatkan!

p/s : better jangan try doh recipe ni, serious xD

Okay first,


 But fortunately, a night before her birthday....me and Farah macam ada conflict sikit. From nak gaduh dengan Shaf, ter gaduh pulak dengan Farah. So lagi okay la kan gaduh dengan birthday girl terus xD I pretend to be an emo girl starting from the night before her birthday. Kiranya aku dengan Farah bergaduh la time ni. HAHAHAHAHAAHAHA it was so hard! Okay I admit that I can be emotional with some people for weeks and months or maybe yearsss. But pretending to be emo was really hard! Sebab tak ada sebab nak emo ha gitu. ((Oh okay to SYAHIRA and MIMIE if you are reading this, sorry sebab masa korang tanya aku okay ke tak aku tak bagitahu the real story. Disini aku titipkan maafku sebab aku berlakon je jadi emo harituuu. I'm sorry girlss!!! If you guys noticed at the end of the day I tweeted "End of my acting as an emo girl" . HAHAHAHHA ok sorry ))

So pagi hari kejadian... still okay. Oh I still remember that Farah offered me payung nak balik kolej sama sama sebab time tu hujan. Tapi kami ada tiga orang. So i was like


Power tak aku berlakon? And luckily my face was really serious at that time xD ((Shaf cerita petang tu masa class Farah menangis sebab, aku bila dengan orang lain gelak gelak tapi bila dengan dia lain)) HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHA i feel so bad :((( but in order to make our plan success, I have to do it xD

Tiba lah waktu yang nak celebrate birthday malam tu....ala time ni nak cerita pun panjang so I will just stop here. Yang penting our prank was a success okay! Padan muka Farah kena prank.