Life sure is full of misery, conflicts, and complicated. Sometimes you just feel like you wanna dissappear from everyone's sight. Without being noticed. Without anyone care. Without feel distracted. You know, you just feel that. But at some point, you will feel otherwise. You want everyone's attention. You want someone care for you. You want someone love you. You feel like you just need somebody that you can rely on to. Being alone isnt that bad. Being surrounded by people isnt that bad neither. I know theres must be a reason for everything that happened or will happen. I'm just tired of everything. I'm tired of being the one who to blame. Over, over and over again. At the end, all you need is just yourself. I just hate the fact of myself that always put someone as priority while me being put as an option. Ada takpe, takda pun takpe. You are just a prop to a drama. An extra in a story. You just not attractive enough for everyone to notice you. I just feel that everything I did wasnt good enough. Im trying so hard to control my emotions, but then it still easily to burst out. I'm out of control. I'm such a weak person, i cant handle my own emotions. I'm full of insecurity. I feel useless everytime people sad because of me. I feel bad everytime i'm the one spoiling people's mood. But I'm just an ordinary human being. I just feel like I'm such an asshole. Sorry for everything I did. Thanks for trying to cope with all my weird behaviors for all this time. I dont want to lose anyone in my life. Jaljayo